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[Mar. 29th, 2007|01:04 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | gone | ] |
| [ | saint |
| | Early Winter ~ Gwen Stefani | ] |
Hey~
If you haven't guessed, this journal is dead. Mainly due to the fact that i want a fresh start; it isn't being deleted, because i want to be able to come back in the future, and see how much i may have changed.
On that note, there is a new journal. So, if you're interested in reading my inane rambles, here's my new personal LJ (my art LJ is still the same, though):
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) radiosoldier
Please add~?
You can blame the amazing game flOw (which i have downloaded, eh heh) and reading up on flow theory, which is muy nifty.
So, this journal is dead. Thanks~ i'll be adding people tomorrow when i get up.
Night~ |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 28th, 2007|03:03 pm] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  numb | ] |
Nevermind.
Know what?
i'm just gonna delete this journal, and stop writing.
Thinking about closing devART account.
Uhm.
i'll still be on crow-syndrome, just to read.
But.
i'm not going to write.
Not anymore.
Bye. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 28th, 2007|02:29 pm] |
| [ | sinner |
| | numb | ] |
| [ | saint |
| | Stars and Boulevards | ] |
'kay, feeling..generally better? Smeh.
Btw, last entry, not about anyone here. i had meant to write it, but. Too tired. (Went to nap and draw. Whoo..) Mum mostly. Won't go into the annoying details of the morning and of the night before, in conversation.
Spent last night with much paranoia and unneeded down moods. i want to respond to things. i need to. But. Communication is slacking.
And in this, i fear that i am hated. Which i probably am. Has happened before.
When i was in middle school, there was a girl i looked up to. Was good friends with. Don't remember what happened, but more than likely fault of my own. Started hating me. When i wasn't around, would speak of me to others. Nothing good. And..i dunno. Afraid it's happening again. i don't know what to do. To fix the damage that may be done. Or anything. So i don't want to try.
Deleted journal last night for a bit, wanting nothing more than to fade. Activated it because there's still people i want to read of. And i thought it'd be rude..
Hands are shaking, not sure of why.
Whatever i guess.
Wanting nothing more than to fade away.
i don't want (though i can't help) people to think negatively of me. At the most, i'd rather they think nothing of me. i think it would hurt more, but it causes less physical discomfort and paranoia.
If you hate me, dislike me, think anything negative of me. Please say so.
Paranoia is no friend. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 28th, 2007|11:56 am] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  crappy | ] |
Woke up, headache. Feel like shit? Yuupppp. Physically and emotionally? Yuuuuuuuuuupppppppppppppp.
Not only that, but woke up in time for the Jehovah's Witnesses to show up, LOL.
One day. JUST ONE. i don't want to deal with anyones bullshit. Not a single word, secret, sentence, lie, stanza, whatever.
But i realize that this is just too much to ask.
Fuck it. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 28th, 2007|12:22 am] |
| [ | sinner |
| | crappy | ] |
Forget it. Deleted it. It was fucking stupid.
i'm such a fucking moron.
Don't trust myself communicating tonight. Tomorrow. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 27th, 2007|06:28 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | quiz, survey | ] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | saint |
| | The Weight of My Words (FourTetRemix) ~ Kings of Convenience | ] |
..i keep stealing surveys. >_>
( Another one! )
25. Now tag five of your friends! They MUST take this quiz and post it in their journal!
Uhm..if you wanna do it, go 'head. xDD
edit
Did a quiz~
( i am such a nerd xD ) |
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[Mar. 27th, 2007|04:58 pm] |
Alice just left. :D
I AM THOROUGHLY AMUSED.
i had woken up and was cleaning the litter box, when mum comes in with the phone for me. i was confused, but less confused when it was Alice on the other end. xDD She came in like an hour and a half, we dicked around for a bit, i played with her Powerbook (IT'S SO NICE AND SHINY AND FRIENDLY), we watched the PotC3 and Stardust trailers (her intarweb is dead D:). And then we went to the mall!
We went and got some bubble tea, and the lady who works at the kiosk thought we were hilarious. xD We decided on what bubble tea we wanted, but we couldn't decide on how big of a cup we wanted. SO WE FLIPPED. And she was standing there, cracking up. It was amazing. And then we went to deliA's, and i had a giftcard for $80, and they had a buy one, get one half off thing for the shirts. :D So we both got two shirts. Alice got a crossword puzzle shirt and a WHALE SHIRT (WHAAALES), and i got two red shirts. This one, and for some godawful reason, the other one i got isn't on the site, and it's SO PAINFULLY CUTE. Once it's out of the wash, i'll get a picture of it. xD The one shirt i REALLY REALLY WANTED wasn't there (yes, even though it's pink), and i'm sad that i didn't see this one because it's so friggen' badass. AH WELL.
And then we went to go see TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES. Hells yes.
GO SEE IT.
It is SO awesomely cheesy, and SO MUCH FUN TO WATCH. i love Casey, Donatello, and Michelangelo. xD They're all so dorky (LOL CASEY WAS ALL BADASS, AND HAD THE HOCKEY STICKS). Alice and i were cracking up when Raphael yelled "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" into the sky after [SPOILERS HERE LOL].
i'm surprised, though. :D They stayed true to the original TMNT (mainly in the supar CHEESE FACTOR), and they did really well (even though i remember like nothing from it, LOL). They're hinting towards a second movie, which will be totally awesome (WHAAT? SHREDDER BETTER COME BACK, GORRAM IT. THAT'D BE SO COOL).
i love you silly turtles and your equally silly cheese. ;D
Anyways, then we came back, dicked around some more (mainly we decided to be REALLY STUPID and message each other back and forth from two different sides of the room)
Tiegan - BAHAHA
Seth - BWAHAHAHA
Tiegan - *SNRRK*
Tiegan - WE ARE TEH DORKY
Seth - INDEED
Seth - I HAVE A BUBBLE
Tiegan - :D BUBBLES
Seth - MY HAPPY BUBBLES
Seth - LOL IM IMING YOU TOO
Tiegan - :P
Tiegan - I AM WATCHING YOU.
Tiegan - PEE.
Seth - peeeeeeeeee
Seth - PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
iChat has bubbles for it's messages, AND THEY'RE FUN. i had my own little bubble. :3
And then we were talking to Piper, and i kept attacking the keyboard to type things. And then she started talking about smeg. Which is. Gross. GROOOOSSSSSSSSS.
Then she had to do her photo project thingy, of the Seven Deadly Sins. :P i got to be Sloth (well DUH). It was silly! i probably look so much more retarded than usual. >_> Lmfao.
Annnndddddd then Alice had to leave. >: Just as Mark got here too. xD
Next week, she might be spending the night, and we're gonna go to the Crystal Fox with her Mark! :DDD So not only do i get to go get nifty stuffs, but i get to meet the infamous Mark. >:3
SO YAH. :D That was my day. Needless to say, i feel less funky.
BTW. That mood could be credited to a..strange/dark dream i had last night? i don't remember a lot of it, though, but it was weird?
( DREAM! )
Well, that's that~
OH. BTW. ALICE. YOU LEFT THE LAMP-THING HERE. :|
Now, i need to go play with my icons. xD
P.S. ONE OF THE PREVIEWS BEFORE TMNT WAS FOR HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX. I CAN'T WAIT. D:
Let's see:
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End - May
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - July
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - JULY!
Stardust - August
I AM EXCITED.
Something cool better come in June. It'd be perfect. xD |
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[Mar. 27th, 2007|10:52 am] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  curious | ] |
Random question:
Theoretically, who spends more time on their hair?
Emo kids or Indie kids?
And of those two, would boys or girls spend more time? (ex. Indie girls spend more time, Indie boys spend more time, emo..etc.)
Haha, i dunno. i was flat-ironing my hair and was wondering about it. (i hate flat-ironing and blow drying, but i have to do it. i don't know how many people have seen me with my unkempt short hair. It wasn't happy looking and was supar crazy. i HAVE to take care of my hair, otherwise it tries to eat me, which isn't fun.)
Alice is coming here right now! Whee! Haha, i was so confused when mum handed me the phone.. >>; |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 27th, 2007|12:22 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | otakon | ] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  tired | ] |
Oh, and quick question:
Anyone going to Otakon this year?
i'm asking for a couple o' reasons:
- if i keep checking the page obsessively and catch it in time, i'm gonna try getting a table in the Alley. i won't be selling anything, probably, though..i have no means to make anything. So probably drawings/commissions on the spot, if anything at all.
- i want to meet some people! i like meeting people, and my anxiety always seems to mostly vanish at conventions, so i get more friendly in public than i normally would be.
- i'm not entirely sure of what my situation with a hotel room is, because my friend who normally gets the rooms for everyone doesn't have any money. i don't know if we'll pull through anyways, but if it comes down to it, would anyone be willing to let me stay in theirs? i don't snore and i'm asexual! Perfect! ; ;
i'm asking early, because i like to get things setup (even a little) way beforehand and being able to change or accommodate other plans, instead of panicking at the last minute. Hates panicking, we do.
The hotel thing may or may not happen (more than likely, it won't, unless something comes up), but back-ups are good! Dx
i'll be cosplaying L, prolly, since all i really need to do is get a white version of my normal shirt (i wear a black L-shirt pretty much, lmfao), so yeah~ |
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[Mar. 26th, 2007|11:37 pm] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  drained | ] |
Mood drifted downwards, into self-loathing. However, mums was in the room for..a lot of time. So venting properly was not possible, and now they're all struck matches. It's drained me, and i will more than likely be going to sleep right now. Yes, early. But i really don't have energy as of now to put any effort into anything.
Though, this means i will (hopefully) be awake earlier tomorrow, which will be nice. i like waking up early, rather than late, because not only is the chance for headaches dramatically decreased, but also. i like being awake before everyone else. i like the silence in the early mornings, and not having to deal with anyones (not even my own) bullshit.
There's a sleeping lad, there. On the side of the road. Carrying lanterns and leading the animals along. Fox Bells and things, you see. |
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[Mar. 26th, 2007|08:50 pm] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  okay | ] |
Oii, Alice. What time you be coming over tomorrow? *Flails at* :\ |
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[Mar. 26th, 2007|05:52 pm] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | saint |
| | Inner Universe ~ Origa | ] |
Something random:
Do not claim to be something that you know nothing of.
Reading/Analyzing and experiencing are two seperate things.
But. Eh. *Shrug* Whatever.
Whatever floats you boat, i guess. Even though there is no water to speak of in that sea... |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 26th, 2007|02:37 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | dream | ] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
| [ | saint |
| | The Hammer & The Nail ~ Tokyo Rose | ] |
Though i am not blond. >_> It was the only hair style like mine, and all the black ones were like "LOL FOREHEAD".
i don't like my forehead. :|
*Stares at Snowman* ...Snooowwwwwmaaaaannnnn...
i also just remembered part of the beginning of last nights dream. Musings in the daily life. Huh.
( Cut, just for the hell of it )
i think i'ma go Sim. xD |
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[Mar. 25th, 2007|11:44 pm] |
| [ | sinner |
| | drained | ] |
No good came of today, but to go through every single frustration and minuscule detail would only succeed in grating on my nerves. i can say, however, that i become increasingly weary of the humans innate nature. Desire. Instinct. To constantly conquer the land and it's inhabitants, no matter the toll (or how utterly idiotic they may seem in the process). In this case, animals and their natural habitats, which we are constantly taking away from them, and simply refuse to coexist with them. But i digress, because arguing it would only be fruitless, and the bearers of this inane, self-imposed duty, are nothing but hard-headed, zoophobic bigots.
On the other hand, Henri isn't doing well. He has something of a colon infection, and apparently has been running a fever for some time. Of course, no one deigned to inform my mom and myself of this, until we were there. Not only that, but grandma mentioned it almost as an after-thought.
We went to H-Mart in Wheaton, where it was filled to the brim with too many people and not enough food. The one thing i always get when going there, Dango, was completely gone. It was too crowded. And one thing i severely dislike about many restaurants and stores, is i do not like seeing live animals, kept in tanks, for the purpose of killing and eating. It really hurts me to see that, and i felt awful for the eels in the tank there. It's one of the many reasons why living as a monk/nun would be pleasant and easy for me, given that i don't eat meat, but if i do (because it's given to me) i don't want to eat it if i'm aware it had been alive and had been killed for me. That's just something i've always done, regardless of Buddhism roots.
Much of the day was spent having mom vent her bad moods at me. Accusations against my attitude and all sorts of things, when i was just tired, unmotivated, and overall apathetic. And much of the car ride back here to Annapolis was spent with her complaining about people, how stupid/annoying they were, etc., etc. And, i must say, that constant bitching about people extremely aggravates me. Well, when done verbally and constant, without pause. It grates on my nerves, and i'm not entirely sure of why. It just does. It can actually make me rather angry fairly quickly, though it gets shoved down into quiet apathy.
Not much else happened following, save for the cats knocking over a plant and breaking a pot. Alice is spending Easter with us~ Yay~
You know, i've been feeling like complete shit lately, yes? Moment the red plague hits, i feel generally fine, if not a bit apathetic. Not depressed, however. Just, generally okay.
Damn it all.
edit
i started some art very late last night, though don't expect it until sometime tomorrow. i'm too tired to stay at the computer, but i'll probably work on it all in bed or sommat.
Here's a hint for one of them: Seth Reuben, Tiegan Reed.
That is all.
G'night. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 25th, 2007|11:53 am] |
| [ | sinner |
| |  annoyed | ] |
Oh. Huh. Hey. i'm gonna be in MoCo today.
THANKS FOR THE HEADS UP, MOM. LOL. |
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